"Hi hi, what a coincidence! Ran into you again today, Dinosaur. ^^"
Xiaoguang quickly typed on the keyboard. She didn't know since when it had started, but every day she went online at exactly this time, just for the chance to meet him.
A few months ago, when she had been in an extremely anxious mood, Xiaoguang met a boy called "Dinosaur" in the chatroom. His thoughtfulness and humor deeply captivated her, and she began to feel the beauty of life again. She truly felt lucky to have met "Dinosaur." She truly hoped that every day she could see messages from him and know how he was doing.
"Yeah! What a coincidence~ How was my cute Jasmine's day today?"
When Du Li saw the message she sent, he couldn't help smiling knowingly. Every day around this time, he would become anxious for no reason at all, simply because he longed to see her come online. Ever since meeting this slightly melancholic yet somewhat mischievous young girl in the chatroom, Du Li had started to like her.
She must be very cute, right?? he thought silently to himself...
"Same as always, being abused every day by that awful boss of mine!"
"Hehe~ Poor Jasmine, how should I comfort you?"
A sudden longing surged up in Xiaoguang's heart. She wanted to meet Dinosaur.
"I want to see you. That would be the greatest comfort for me!"
The moment Du Li saw those words on the screen, he froze. Meet her? He couldn't meet her. He was a flawed person. He couldn't bear her looking at him with different eyes. She had already taken a place in his heart, and he didn't want to ruin this beautiful feeling between them.
"Dinosaur~ are you still there?" Xiaoguang grew anxious. She shouldn't have made such an abrupt request!
"Dinosaur???"
Cowardly, Du Li cut the connection. He was afraid that in the end he would still be unable to resist agreeing to Jasmine's request. After all, deep in his heart, he was desperately longing to see her.
Ever since that day when Dinosaur cut the connection, she hadn't seen him online for many days. It was all her fault for making the request to meet. Sigh! If I had known it would turn out like this, why did I do it in the first place? What if he won't talk to me anymore?? Xiaoguang cursed herself over and over in her heart.
"Jasmine^^ long time no see." In the end Du Li still couldn't resist his longing and came online. He decided that no matter what, he had to bravely face reality and meet Jasmine once.
"Dinosaur!" Xiaoguang rubbed her eyes in disbelief.
"Where did you go? You had me worried sick~ >.<~"
"Dinosaur... I think it'd be better if we waited until you're ready before we meet~ Sorry, I shouldn't have been so hasty~ But don't ignore me~~~ Wuu..... I missed you so much...." Xiaoguang suppressed her excitement as she typed those words....
"I've just been busy lately! @@ Jasmine, let's meet tomorrow!" Seeing what Jasmine had typed, his heart ached faintly. It was all his fault for making her so upset. So Du Li gathered all his courage and typed those words. Heaven knew how hard it was for him to take this step.
"Really?? Where??" Xiaoguang asked excitedly. At last she would get to see Dinosaur.
"Tomorrow at two o'clock, on the rooftop of Shin Kong Mitsukoshi by the station."
"No breaking your promise! Pinky swear!" Xiaoguang made a pinky-swear gesture, completely forgetting there was no one in front of her.
"Mm! Pinky swear." Du Li also made a pinky-swear gesture.
Five o'clock Shin Kong Mitsukoshi rooftop
Xiaoguang glared angrily at her watch. It was already five! Why hadn't Dinosaur come yet? Could it be that he had made a fool of her? She turned to leave. She swore she would never speak to Dinosaur again.
"Are you Miss Jasmine?" Standing before her was a young boy, his eyes slightly wet.
"I am. Are you Dinosaur?" Xiaoguang looked at him in confusion, not understanding why he looked so sad.
"I'm not, but I came in his place. You really are as beautiful as he described," he said chokingly.
"What happened to Dinosaur?" Xiaoguang asked anxiously.
"He... he had an attack and passed away this morning. He had been looking forward so much to today's date with you. Heaven knows how long he struggled, and how long he waited for it." The boy clenched his fists emotionally.
"No, that's impossible. You're joking, right? You joined together on purpose to trick me!" Xiaoguang bit hard on her lower lip. She refused to believe this was true.
"This is for you from Du Li, who was also Dinosaur. He had originally planned to give it to you himself today." The boy handed her a necklace. Inside the heart-shaped locket was Du Li's photo.
Xiaoguang trembled as she opened the locket. Sure enough, he was as handsome and striking as she had imagined. The moment she saw the photo, the tears in her eyes fell uncontrollably.
"What illness did he have?"
"Lung cancer. At the end he told me to tell you... to forget him.
"He told me to forget him?" Xiaoguang stared blankly at the chain in her hand, and her eyes quickly reddened.
The young boy looked at Xiaoguang awkwardly. "I have something to do, I'll be leaving first."
The boy fled Mitsukoshi as if escaping disaster. Heaven knew why he had agreed to do Du Li this favor. Seeing how heartbroken Xiaoguang was, he really felt he had done something wrong. But watching Du Li's body grow more and more haggard day by day, he had no choice but to help him. Seeing the two of them trapped by love, he almost wished he could tell her the truth.
Xiaoguang felt a coolness on her face. The sky had begun to drizzle. At this moment, she could no longer tell whether it was rain or tears.
＃ ＃ ＃ ＃
Xiaoguang stared blankly at the computer screen. She didn't know what she was still hoping for. He could never appear again. There would never again be midnight dates. At the thought of this, tears burst from her eyes uncontrollably, one drop, two drops, falling on the keyboard endlessly like pearls from a broken string. The screen still kept flickering, but her heart seemed to have stopped. Watching the other people in the chatroom talking happily, she finally couldn't bear it any longer. She switched off the power and burst into tears.
Two months later
"Xiaoguang, please take this blood test slip to the lab for me." The head nurse picked up the form in her hand and gave it to Xiaoguang.
"Head nurse, okay, I'll go right away!" Xiaoguang took the form and headed for the lab.
"How pitiful! So young, and already has lung cancer." Two nurses were chatting in front of the lab.
Xiaoguang placed the blood test slip and test tube on the rack in front of her. Just as she was about to leave, a voice calling out made her stop. "Xiaoguang......"
"Yixin, what is it?"
"Can you cover the Saturday day shift on Ward 9 East for me?" Yixin put her hands together in a pleading gesture.
"But what about the head nurse?" Xiaoguang said awkwardly.
"I'll go talk to your head nurse for you. Aren't you off that day anyway? I suddenly need to go back to Yilan, so please, you have to help me with this. And I have a terminal lung cancer case in room 903. His life could be in danger at any moment, so there has to be an experienced nurse there. Please help me, okay?"
The moment she heard the words lung cancer, Xiaoguang's eyes dimmed at once. She thought of Dinosaur again. With great difficulty she had managed to forget him a little while at work. It had already been two months, but she still couldn't accept the fact that Dinosaur had left this world.
"Xiaoguang, can you? The patient in room 903 is very easy to get along with. Not only is he handsome, he's gentle too. And the most touching thing is that he writes letters to his girlfriend every single day. It's just such a pity that someone so young has an incurable disease," Yixin said regretfully.
"Sure." Xiaoguang forced out a smile. Heaven knew how much it hurt her heart to hear of a patient with the same illness as Du Yu. She shouldn't think about it anymore. She should find a way to forget him.
"Then it's settled! Xiaoguang, what's wrong? Your face has gotten so pale." Yixin looked at her with concern.
"I'm fine. I should be going back." Xiaoguang turned and walked out of the lab.
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Again, unconsciously, she came to this chatroom. She tapped meaninglessly on the keyboard, not knowing what she was doing. She missed him, really missed him. Even though they had known each other for less than a few months, she had somehow fallen in love with him just like that. And yet there would never be any intersection between them. Thinking of this, Xiaoguang's tears again fell out of control. She hated herself like this. Lately she was about to turn into a faucet. Sigh~ she shouldn't think about it anymore. She had to pull herself together and cheer up!
She tried hard to hypnotize herself, thinking that tomorrow she still had to cover Yixin's shift. She forced herself to get ready for the next day's work, not knowing that this shift coverage would lead her to discover... Tap! Tap! The sound of typing kept coming from the other end of the corridor. Curious, Xiaoguang walked closer to the room by the hallway. The sound grew nearer and nearer. It seemed to be coming from room 903. Xiaoguang quietly pushed the door open a little and saw a pale yet very handsome profile. His tightly pressed thin lips showed that he was enduring great pain, while his long straight hands were rapidly typing on the keyboard. A strong sense of familiarity rose in Xiaoguang's heart.
"Xiaoguang, what are you doing?" Another nurse, Jian Hui, appeared behind her.
"Nothing! I just heard a strange sound, so I came to take a look." Xiaoguang withdrew the hand that had just been about to push the door.
"You mean the handsome guy in room 903? He often holds his laptop and types, but no one knows what he's typing. Oh right, the IV in room 915 has finished, it's time to change it!"
"Oh! I'll go right away." Xiaoguang forcibly suppressed the curiosity in her heart and began preparing the IV for room 915.
1:18 in the morning
"Room 903 needs CPR. Xiaoguang, hurry and contact Dr. Chen from internal medicine," Jian Hui said in a panic.
"Okay, I'll call right now." Xiaoguang picked up the phone and dialed the extension number. "Dr. Chen, this is 9 East. A patient needs CPR right now, please come up immediately."
Xiaoguang hung up the phone. Just as she was about to go into 903 to help, the patient had already been wheeled out. Watching the hospital bed being pushed away,
an inexplicable terror rose in her heart. She had been working in nursing for six years already, and she couldn't understand why she was showing such abnormal behavior. This shouldn't have been happening to her.
She tried hard not to think about her strange feeling. Suddenly her attention was drawn to the laptop in front of her. The screensaver on the monitor kept moving. Her curiosity drove her and she couldn't help stepping forward. She knew perfectly well that what she was doing was invading someone else's privacy, but she still moved the mouse. When she saw the contents, she fell to the ground in shock, and her tears poured down uncontrollably...
12/05
Jasmine:
Forgive me for not showing up for our date today. It's just that this ruined body of mine made it impossible for me to see you. My little brother told me that you're as sweet and lovely as your name. I wished I could fly straight to your side and look at you properly. Forgive me for lying to you. I really didn't want you to be disappointed in me.
12/06
Jasmine:
It feels like my body may not make it through this winter. The pain grows stronger day by day. Heaven knows how much I want release, but for you I am willing to struggle on.
12/07
Jasmine:
Today is my birthday. Just imagining you saying "happy birthday" to me is enough to make me happy all day!
12/08
Jasmine:
Writing a diary to you every day has become part of my routine now. Heh! I want so badly to see you, to hold you in my arms. It's just a pity that my arms are no longer as strong as before, no longer able to let you lean on them!
12/09
Jasmine:
For some reason I always feel that the distance between us is so far. I really don't want to die. Never before have I feared death so much. But at this moment, all I want is to beg heaven to give me a little more time to stay by your side.
12/10
Jasmine:
I truly regret not getting to know you earlier, at least when I was still healthy. I wanted so much for you to see me when I was full of spirit. And I'm not just bragging—back then I was really radiant, and lots of girls liked me!
Seeing this, you're definitely laughing secretly, right? Thinking, how can someone be so shameless? But my shamelessness is only for you! I really want to fight heaven for a little more time, but it seems the circumstances won't allow it. In the past I was so cynical about love, but when I finally met a girl who truly moved my heart, I was unable to stay by her side and protect her. How I wish I could trade everything I have for one healthy day by your side, but it seems this wish can never come true. Lately I feel especially tired. What I regret is that I couldn't bravely go and see you that day. Not making it in time to meet you will be the greatest regret of my life.
"Too late to meet you..." Xiaoguang choked out those words. Du Li had no idea what a cruel joke heaven had played on them, making two people who had never met yet cared for each other miss one another like this. If only she had been a little braver that day and pushed open that door, maybe they would not have had such a great regret.
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"The patient's heartbeat is getting weaker and weaker."
A tear fell from the corner of Du Li's eye. He knew he had reached the end of his life, but not making it in time to meet her was the greatest regret of this life. He felt his breathing becoming more and more rapid.
"2:28 in the morning. The patient is pronounced dead," the doctor announced calmly.
He truly did not want to leave this world carrying regret. His hands dropped down weakly, and the last words in his mind surfaced: "Too late... to meet you."
《End》
Xiaoguang quickly typed on the keyboard. She didn't know since when it had started, but every day she went online at exactly this time, just for the chance to meet him.
A few months ago, when she had been in an extremely anxious mood, Xiaoguang met a boy called "Dinosaur" in the chatroom. His thoughtfulness and humor deeply captivated her, and she began to feel the beauty of life again. She truly felt lucky to have met "Dinosaur." She truly hoped that every day she could see messages from him and know how he was doing.
"Yeah! What a coincidence~ How was my cute Jasmine's day today?"
When Du Li saw the message she sent, he couldn't help smiling knowingly. Every day around this time, he would become anxious for no reason at all, simply because he longed to see her come online. Ever since meeting this slightly melancholic yet somewhat mischievous young girl in the chatroom, Du Li had started to like her.
She must be very cute, right?? he thought silently to himself...
"Same as always, being abused every day by that awful boss of mine!"
"Hehe~ Poor Jasmine, how should I comfort you?"
A sudden longing surged up in Xiaoguang's heart. She wanted to meet Dinosaur.
"I want to see you. That would be the greatest comfort for me!"
The moment Du Li saw those words on the screen, he froze. Meet her? He couldn't meet her. He was a flawed person. He couldn't bear her looking at him with different eyes. She had already taken a place in his heart, and he didn't want to ruin this beautiful feeling between them.
"Dinosaur~ are you still there?" Xiaoguang grew anxious. She shouldn't have made such an abrupt request!
"Dinosaur???"
Cowardly, Du Li cut the connection. He was afraid that in the end he would still be unable to resist agreeing to Jasmine's request. After all, deep in his heart, he was desperately longing to see her.
Ever since that day when Dinosaur cut the connection, she hadn't seen him online for many days. It was all her fault for making the request to meet. Sigh! If I had known it would turn out like this, why did I do it in the first place? What if he won't talk to me anymore?? Xiaoguang cursed herself over and over in her heart.
"Jasmine^^ long time no see." In the end Du Li still couldn't resist his longing and came online. He decided that no matter what, he had to bravely face reality and meet Jasmine once.
"Dinosaur!" Xiaoguang rubbed her eyes in disbelief.
"Where did you go? You had me worried sick~ >.<~"
"Dinosaur... I think it'd be better if we waited until you're ready before we meet~ Sorry, I shouldn't have been so hasty~ But don't ignore me~~~ Wuu..... I missed you so much...." Xiaoguang suppressed her excitement as she typed those words....
"I've just been busy lately! @@ Jasmine, let's meet tomorrow!" Seeing what Jasmine had typed, his heart ached faintly. It was all his fault for making her so upset. So Du Li gathered all his courage and typed those words. Heaven knew how hard it was for him to take this step.
"Really?? Where??" Xiaoguang asked excitedly. At last she would get to see Dinosaur.
"Tomorrow at two o'clock, on the rooftop of Shin Kong Mitsukoshi by the station."
"No breaking your promise! Pinky swear!" Xiaoguang made a pinky-swear gesture, completely forgetting there was no one in front of her.
"Mm! Pinky swear." Du Li also made a pinky-swear gesture.
Five o'clock Shin Kong Mitsukoshi rooftop
Xiaoguang glared angrily at her watch. It was already five! Why hadn't Dinosaur come yet? Could it be that he had made a fool of her? She turned to leave. She swore she would never speak to Dinosaur again.
"Are you Miss Jasmine?" Standing before her was a young boy, his eyes slightly wet.
"I am. Are you Dinosaur?" Xiaoguang looked at him in confusion, not understanding why he looked so sad.
"I'm not, but I came in his place. You really are as beautiful as he described," he said chokingly.
"What happened to Dinosaur?" Xiaoguang asked anxiously.
"He... he had an attack and passed away this morning. He had been looking forward so much to today's date with you. Heaven knows how long he struggled, and how long he waited for it." The boy clenched his fists emotionally.
"No, that's impossible. You're joking, right? You joined together on purpose to trick me!" Xiaoguang bit hard on her lower lip. She refused to believe this was true.
"This is for you from Du Li, who was also Dinosaur. He had originally planned to give it to you himself today." The boy handed her a necklace. Inside the heart-shaped locket was Du Li's photo.
Xiaoguang trembled as she opened the locket. Sure enough, he was as handsome and striking as she had imagined. The moment she saw the photo, the tears in her eyes fell uncontrollably.
"What illness did he have?"
"Lung cancer. At the end he told me to tell you... to forget him.
"He told me to forget him?" Xiaoguang stared blankly at the chain in her hand, and her eyes quickly reddened.
The young boy looked at Xiaoguang awkwardly. "I have something to do, I'll be leaving first."
The boy fled Mitsukoshi as if escaping disaster. Heaven knew why he had agreed to do Du Li this favor. Seeing how heartbroken Xiaoguang was, he really felt he had done something wrong. But watching Du Li's body grow more and more haggard day by day, he had no choice but to help him. Seeing the two of them trapped by love, he almost wished he could tell her the truth.
Xiaoguang felt a coolness on her face. The sky had begun to drizzle. At this moment, she could no longer tell whether it was rain or tears.
＃ ＃ ＃ ＃
Xiaoguang stared blankly at the computer screen. She didn't know what she was still hoping for. He could never appear again. There would never again be midnight dates. At the thought of this, tears burst from her eyes uncontrollably, one drop, two drops, falling on the keyboard endlessly like pearls from a broken string. The screen still kept flickering, but her heart seemed to have stopped. Watching the other people in the chatroom talking happily, she finally couldn't bear it any longer. She switched off the power and burst into tears.
Two months later
"Xiaoguang, please take this blood test slip to the lab for me." The head nurse picked up the form in her hand and gave it to Xiaoguang.
"Head nurse, okay, I'll go right away!" Xiaoguang took the form and headed for the lab.
"How pitiful! So young, and already has lung cancer." Two nurses were chatting in front of the lab.
Xiaoguang placed the blood test slip and test tube on the rack in front of her. Just as she was about to leave, a voice calling out made her stop. "Xiaoguang......"
"Yixin, what is it?"
"Can you cover the Saturday day shift on Ward 9 East for me?" Yixin put her hands together in a pleading gesture.
"But what about the head nurse?" Xiaoguang said awkwardly.
"I'll go talk to your head nurse for you. Aren't you off that day anyway? I suddenly need to go back to Yilan, so please, you have to help me with this. And I have a terminal lung cancer case in room 903. His life could be in danger at any moment, so there has to be an experienced nurse there. Please help me, okay?"
The moment she heard the words lung cancer, Xiaoguang's eyes dimmed at once. She thought of Dinosaur again. With great difficulty she had managed to forget him a little while at work. It had already been two months, but she still couldn't accept the fact that Dinosaur had left this world.
"Xiaoguang, can you? The patient in room 903 is very easy to get along with. Not only is he handsome, he's gentle too. And the most touching thing is that he writes letters to his girlfriend every single day. It's just such a pity that someone so young has an incurable disease," Yixin said regretfully.
"Sure." Xiaoguang forced out a smile. Heaven knew how much it hurt her heart to hear of a patient with the same illness as Du Yu. She shouldn't think about it anymore. She should find a way to forget him.
"Then it's settled! Xiaoguang, what's wrong? Your face has gotten so pale." Yixin looked at her with concern.
"I'm fine. I should be going back." Xiaoguang turned and walked out of the lab.
＃ ＃ ＃ ＃
Again, unconsciously, she came to this chatroom. She tapped meaninglessly on the keyboard, not knowing what she was doing. She missed him, really missed him. Even though they had known each other for less than a few months, she had somehow fallen in love with him just like that. And yet there would never be any intersection between them. Thinking of this, Xiaoguang's tears again fell out of control. She hated herself like this. Lately she was about to turn into a faucet. Sigh~ she shouldn't think about it anymore. She had to pull herself together and cheer up!
She tried hard to hypnotize herself, thinking that tomorrow she still had to cover Yixin's shift. She forced herself to get ready for the next day's work, not knowing that this shift coverage would lead her to discover... Tap! Tap! The sound of typing kept coming from the other end of the corridor. Curious, Xiaoguang walked closer to the room by the hallway. The sound grew nearer and nearer. It seemed to be coming from room 903. Xiaoguang quietly pushed the door open a little and saw a pale yet very handsome profile. His tightly pressed thin lips showed that he was enduring great pain, while his long straight hands were rapidly typing on the keyboard. A strong sense of familiarity rose in Xiaoguang's heart.
"Xiaoguang, what are you doing?" Another nurse, Jian Hui, appeared behind her.
"Nothing! I just heard a strange sound, so I came to take a look." Xiaoguang withdrew the hand that had just been about to push the door.
"You mean the handsome guy in room 903? He often holds his laptop and types, but no one knows what he's typing. Oh right, the IV in room 915 has finished, it's time to change it!"
"Oh! I'll go right away." Xiaoguang forcibly suppressed the curiosity in her heart and began preparing the IV for room 915.
1:18 in the morning
"Room 903 needs CPR. Xiaoguang, hurry and contact Dr. Chen from internal medicine," Jian Hui said in a panic.
"Okay, I'll call right now." Xiaoguang picked up the phone and dialed the extension number. "Dr. Chen, this is 9 East. A patient needs CPR right now, please come up immediately."
Xiaoguang hung up the phone. Just as she was about to go into 903 to help, the patient had already been wheeled out. Watching the hospital bed being pushed away,
an inexplicable terror rose in her heart. She had been working in nursing for six years already, and she couldn't understand why she was showing such abnormal behavior. This shouldn't have been happening to her.
She tried hard not to think about her strange feeling. Suddenly her attention was drawn to the laptop in front of her. The screensaver on the monitor kept moving. Her curiosity drove her and she couldn't help stepping forward. She knew perfectly well that what she was doing was invading someone else's privacy, but she still moved the mouse. When she saw the contents, she fell to the ground in shock, and her tears poured down uncontrollably...
12/05
Jasmine:
Forgive me for not showing up for our date today. It's just that this ruined body of mine made it impossible for me to see you. My little brother told me that you're as sweet and lovely as your name. I wished I could fly straight to your side and look at you properly. Forgive me for lying to you. I really didn't want you to be disappointed in me.
12/06
Jasmine:
It feels like my body may not make it through this winter. The pain grows stronger day by day. Heaven knows how much I want release, but for you I am willing to struggle on.
12/07
Jasmine:
Today is my birthday. Just imagining you saying "happy birthday" to me is enough to make me happy all day!
12/08
Jasmine:
Writing a diary to you every day has become part of my routine now. Heh! I want so badly to see you, to hold you in my arms. It's just a pity that my arms are no longer as strong as before, no longer able to let you lean on them!
12/09
Jasmine:
For some reason I always feel that the distance between us is so far. I really don't want to die. Never before have I feared death so much. But at this moment, all I want is to beg heaven to give me a little more time to stay by your side.
12/10
Jasmine:
I truly regret not getting to know you earlier, at least when I was still healthy. I wanted so much for you to see me when I was full of spirit. And I'm not just bragging—back then I was really radiant, and lots of girls liked me!
Seeing this, you're definitely laughing secretly, right? Thinking, how can someone be so shameless? But my shamelessness is only for you! I really want to fight heaven for a little more time, but it seems the circumstances won't allow it. In the past I was so cynical about love, but when I finally met a girl who truly moved my heart, I was unable to stay by her side and protect her. How I wish I could trade everything I have for one healthy day by your side, but it seems this wish can never come true. Lately I feel especially tired. What I regret is that I couldn't bravely go and see you that day. Not making it in time to meet you will be the greatest regret of my life.
"Too late to meet you..." Xiaoguang choked out those words. Du Li had no idea what a cruel joke heaven had played on them, making two people who had never met yet cared for each other miss one another like this. If only she had been a little braver that day and pushed open that door, maybe they would not have had such a great regret.
＃ ＃ ＃ ＃
"The patient's heartbeat is getting weaker and weaker."
A tear fell from the corner of Du Li's eye. He knew he had reached the end of his life, but not making it in time to meet her was the greatest regret of this life. He felt his breathing becoming more and more rapid.
"2:28 in the morning. The patient is pronounced dead," the doctor announced calmly.
He truly did not want to leave this world carrying regret. His hands dropped down weakly, and the last words in his mind surfaced: "Too late... to meet you."
《End》
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